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W. (whynotme)


June 11, 2008


Alabama


2/23/1977


Breast Cancer


Nov,2007


Stage 3


Yes


Lymph Node Removal, Reconstructive Surgery, Mastectomy, Lumpectomy


Taxol (chemical name: paclitaxel), Cyclophosphamide (brand name: Cytoxan), Adriamycin (chemical name: doxorubicin)


Tamoxifen


Cancer Survivor




whynotme's Cancer Blog

October 8, 2008

Inevitably courageousViews: 135

Inevitably courageous
they took my breast today
riddled with lumps of cancer
no chance that it could stay
a head full of gorgeous nubian hair
my dreads fell one by one
one fell, two fell, three fell, four
soon there would be none
an implant stretches my skin now
so that I won’t have to pad
a wig covers my head now
so that others won’t fill so bad
inevitably courageous
saw the growth within the pain
if I did not learn a single lesson
I went through this in vain
six rounds of chemotherapy
three days, could not get up
four different kinds of medicine
so that my stomach would not erupt
pills for pain and muscle aches
couldn’t imagine it would hurt so bad
but God has deemed me strong enough
so why should I be mad
I cannot conquer breast cancer
and think it has no reason
we all know there is a time
and I know that this is my season
inevitably courageous
I fought and did my best
I stand a soul survivor
Each journey is truly just a test.

I love that!

Marvelous! With out a test there can be no testimony. Your poem was encouraging, thank you.

Mac

Thank for sharing your thoughts through your Poem.

Hug Sherri

What a beautiful poem.

I still have my breasts but they have shrunken and hang down to my waist which has risen up to meet them. smile It happens with old age and cancer! tee hee hee

Anyway, thanks so much for that poem.

Ethel Craven-Sweet better known as sweete2

Hi there just checking in had not heard from you in a while.

Hug Sherri



June 11, 2008

Raindrops keep fallin on my bald headViews: 406

OK I’m gonna sound like a total nut, but it fills damn good to take a cool shower in 90 degree weather without a hair on my body. It fills good to be able to come home and take off my hair. It feels good not to have to shave, and my eyebrows can be whatever shape or color I want them to be, lol. But seriously, I know that loosing hair is MUCH, MUCH, more important to some than others, I’ve had short hair, long hair, and somewhere in between throughout different periods in my life, and I can’t say that loosing my hair was the end all for me. If you are one of the many that worked so hard on a healthy full head of hair only to loose in in almost one fail swoop to BC, I am truly sorry. I pray that all of us can suck, squeeze, ring, and stomp every positive thing we can out of this life changing thing that has happened to us. So, I am looking forward to a brand new, totally natural, thick, full head of hair. Until then, take lots of nice long showers and baths and appreciate how good the water fills rolling down your skin.

By the way, if you are so brave as to go out without your wig or scarf, I say go for it, what a huge lesson in self confidence. If you can hold your bald head high and not give a cats claw about what everyone is thinking about you, imagine the amount of confidence you’ll have in your everyday get up, if that happens to be something other than bald.

RIGHT ON….I AGREE WITH YOU COMPLETELY. Of course, I am 35 years older than you. You are only 3 months younger than my twin daughters. My bald head never bothered me in the slightest but it did bother one of my daughters. They were juniors in high school when it happened. I tried to wear something on my head when Cheryl was around. My husband, my other daughter and my son didn’t care. I hated the wig or any of the stuff I had to wear on my head. IT WAS SO HOT and as you said, it felt so good to pull it off and go completely bald. I didn’t look all that pretty but it sure did feel good.
My hair started falling out one morning and was completely gone by bedtime. It came back in curly, but to my dismay, my curls didn’t last.
I was hoping it would come back in black instead of grey but that didn’t happen either….lol.
I see you are taking Adriamycin. You may do fine on it depending on the amount you are taking. It damaged my heart muscle but I would rather have my heart muscle damaged than to be dead. I was taking very large amounts of it during the first 2 treatments in 1994. I had a blood clot in my right arm and they had to cut back on the dosage.
I took tamoxifen from 1994 to 1999 but after the 2nd time they gave me Arimidex. I took that from June, 2006, to January, 2007, and my doctor and I decided to stop it because it was not too good for my bones.
Well, hang in there, my friend, and keep fighting. I have been battling for 14 years and I PRAISE GOD FOR EACH YEAR.
My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Hugs,
Joyce

I totally agree with you, I have not and do not plan on getting a wig, when I go out and worry about my poor little very white bald head I will cover it with a sun hat. I find living this summer without having to shave an enourmous blessing!

Welcome to our family!

Teri

When my hair came out, I really had planned to go au natural. But, I teach first graders and some of them had a hard time dealing with it, so I wore caps all year. (I’m not a scarf type of gal.) The good thing was that I got to wear all kinds of crazy hats to school since I teach little ones. I had a neat hat for every holiday and even wore a laminated birthday visor just like my students. My favorite cap was black and it had sequins spelling out ‘No Hair Day’. So, yes, I support everyone on whatever choice they make about their new found bald head. Do what feels right for you and make minor adjustments when you’re around loved ones who are having a hard time dealing with the new you.

ah nicely said, thumbs up for the post



I give up...Views: 278

I realized today that I have been trying to fight cancer all by myself. This is not my fight. God promised me that I would be healed of all of my afflictions. As much as I say it, I haven’t truly believed it for a long time. I have been leaning on friends and family and everyone else I could find for support, but I forgot about God. I know that God sends people in my life for love and support and strength, but when you forget about God, it’s like changing the date of the party on the one who planned the whole thing.

Today I am giving myself permission to give this to God. I’m tellin God when and where all of my appointments are, so he can be there with me. He can help me and my husband remember to ask the questions that we forget. You know those little questions we think don’t make a difference. I’m giving him permission to go into the lab and look at my films and slides and to make sure that nothing was overlooked. I’m giving God permission to talk to my doctors, because who knows my body better than God? I give God permission to speak to my doctors about what they should do, and to guide me in the direction of treatment that’s best for me.

I will always believe that I was put in this position for a reason, but in order to have a testimony of being cured of breast cancer, I must trust that God can and will cure me. My mother always says if your going to pray why worry. With this new year comes a new perspective. I once said that I own this, it does not own me. What I should have said is I do not own this and it does not own me. I gave my cancer to God today, I’ll let him throw it out.

Good idea, I will join you and we will give God our cancer and our worries together. Thank you.

Mac

You said it all guys I give God my problems that I have had that day. He takes care of them for me. He’s up all night any way.
Thank you God for taking care of me.

Hug Sherri



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